I should be writting in a class blog right now, but I can't seem to write anything good at the moment. and I remebered that I had this.

So I've neglected this blog for way too long.
During the past few months, this past semster I have learned a lot.
Though I have learned alot in my classes, I've learned a lot about myself.
One of those things being that I don't like being vulnerable.

I used to think that I was. Maybe suddenly I closed up to the world?
Umm.. that i still haven't understood why. It's so easy for my to analyze other peoples lives, but when it comes to my own, suddenly I can't. Perhaps it's my emotions... I will finally admit that.
I am an emotional person.
No matter how much I don't like crying in front of people and close myself off..it doesn't make me anyless of an emotional person.
Just makes me one who also doesn't like to disclose. Which is a terrible mix btw.
So I'm glad this semester is over. It didn't go well at all tho.
I think my biggest faliure always began when I wasn't in God's word and I wasn't in consistent prayer. *note to self*

Yea, bring everything before God.
I want his blessing before mans praises any day.

So, even if i fail everything...I know God is beyond my circumstances.
I feel his grace beyond my faliure.

I'm sure in someways Job felt like a failure...but God was still beside him.
I'm spent...