Pretty, Unpretty...I dont want to care about pretty!!

I think this whole concept of "pretty" is much more about and for other women. Women judge other women harshly, while some men don’t pay half as much attention. I have a hard time understanding why women cannot embrace other women.

Perhaps it is the innate fear of not finding the man of their dreams, so other women are a threat?

This happens so much in Christian circles and it makes. me .sick.
This whole pretty race is so stupid. I wish we could look beyond the superficial and always wish other people the best. I mean, why the heck not?! Sometimes I feel like I have entered the race when I just try to make myself look decent. But because I didn’t care to be in the race in the first place I get trampled on when people feel like they need to push harder. '
Why do I feel insecure or un-pretty with other women and why ,whhhyy, does it have to matter with them?
It’s strange but true. I know that some girls admire the fact that I can look nice and don’t care what they think of me, but then they don’t know what to do with that. Or how about when I naturally and efforlessly wear the messy look because I didn't care to do anything and people compliment my hair still. Flattering yes, but I get this.. "oh" when I say that all I did was sleep on it.
But, I think I like it better that way. My pretty is temporary, but my beauty grows within me. I’d rather have a beautiful heart and great character than a gratifying temporal outward appearance any day.